TESTING! this is cool.

He said: "Listen, King Jehoshaphat and all who live in Judah and Jerusalem! This is what the LORD says to you: 'Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God's. ... You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the LORD will give you, O Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the LORD will be with you.'"

2 Chronicles 20:15,17 

have moved from here to deepandwide.blogspot

goodbye icansingarainbow!

(for now)

this basically sums up life from 01/01/06 till now.

waaa after a certain sms from a long time acquaintance matt.w, i launched into BLOG STALKER mode and started reading every single NJ person's online diary from my year.

it's really quite amazing how everyone has moved on with their own lives. i wonder how many of us actually look back and think fondly of those days in grey. (or if they even look back at all) i guess i am just a sentimental person. even though the grey memories aren't exactly fond, i still find myself missing those days just once in awhile.

life now is so different. it's like i'm still recovering from the aftermath of a life-shock. (think culture shock) the life i lead now i just so drastically different from that i've been leading these 'schooling' years.

1. i miss wearing a uniform. having to piece together a nice colour coordinated and FASHIONABLE set of work clothes everyday is extremely taxing on my brain. or maybe i just have a very small closet. (I SHOULD SHOP MORE I KNOW)

2. i now mix with an entirely different set of friends. i don't even see bea and mel! i saw them every single day in NJ (when they didn't pon)! =( now i see rachie rach, cel and clara every single day. not that it's a bad thing.. but it just feels so different.

3. work now. school then. go figure. (think rules, work responsibilities, ponning, unpaid leave etc)

4. i don't even USE my phone anymore. back then in tutorials, i would msg ll, kh, gerald and mel every single day till i thought faizal was gonna throw my phone out of the window! now when i get a msg, i just read it, close it and reply the next day.

5. i don't go on MSN anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

6. i don't frequently update my blog!

oh no oh no oh no.

rule number one.
if he makes you feel less than a person, he's just not that into you!

ohh all these breaks. i need one too.

we're going to the zoo! how about you?

NINETEEN MORE WORK DAYS!

SING WITH ME!

19 19 19 19 19 19 19!!!

:):):)

i can finally see the world properly while the sun is still shining brightly!

and so it is..

blogspot > diary-x.

i wonder if anyone even reads this. (considering i have told no one about it except link it through diaryland and the diary-x find me page.)

four words sums up the year 2006 thus far.

i have been busy.

busy with what? not too sure myself although i suspect EY is the main reason.

so WHY do i have the time to update? WHY NOW?

because...
i am wisdom toothless and aching from it!

i want to congratulate myself because i deem it a feat that a human can willingly sit in a chair and let an old man pry her gums back, drill her teeth in half, pluck it out and sew her back up. (without so much as flinching for that matter.)

PLUS I AM RETURNING TO WORK TOMORROW? i think i am going to be a very very good accountant/business woman. workaholic i am.

made poor gerald come down after work just to watch me watch friends re-runs and accompany me. :) :) :)

so many things to do. mel.. i think you're the only close friend that reads this! (or maybe you don't because the world of waitressing has eaten you up.) but please let's meet up soon. :( :(

and so i leave for korea in a few days time! YAY!
hong kong is coming soon too!

but first i have the aching mouth/jaw/lymphnode to deal with. plus the stitches to remove.

and my entire future.

God is holding my hand.
God is holding my hand.

hope jon is doing fine back at camp. tqj too. treating army boys to a nice meal is really quite taxing for my wallet. read crystal jade and sushi tei.

it's been four months since the new year. almost half a year since i was still a JC student. i still feel some sense of nostalgia and sadness when i drive past NJC.

often, i think i live too much in the past.
it's time to live in the present and for the future.
let go.

besides, this year has been amazing, new, foreign and refreshing. guess it takes getting use to. just wish i could live this time out with bea and mel too.

working with cel, rach, clara and the other girls is great but obviously i miss bea and mel.
sigh. we shld make the effort to change together.

zzz.
i want gerald to come over asap! (i sound possessive!) hahaha.

everything is coming out disjointed. think it's the ponstan. xxzz.

oh and i haven't watched my tv shows in two months. :( gerald has caught up with me in lost already la.

i will be still,
know You are God.

oh and maundy thurs, good fri and easter sun have all just passed. hope each day held as much significance to you as it did for me. :)

ever living God.
oh there's no greater love than this!

ZZZ

how did we get to this stage? i feel like an ostrich.

*

on another note, watching nuria's video of our last A level paper makes me sad.

many many ways.

school life. friends. melons. studying. being allowed to be stupid. innocence. youth.

kinda miss wearing the nj uniform although i have come to the conclusion that i look anything but cute in it.

tqj better meet me for dinner. i haven't caught up with a single nj friend in months. how pathetic!

sometimes you can't make it on your own.
we fight.. all the time
you and i.. that's alright (?)
we're the same soul

oh God i need You every hour.
every hour i need Thee.