the thoughts

TESTING! this is cool.

2006-11-27T22:24:00.000-08:00

He said: "Listen, King Jehoshaphat and all who live in Judah and Jerusalem! This is what the LORD says to you: 'Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God's. ... You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the LORD will give you, O Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the LORD will be with you.'"

2 Chronicles 20:15,17

2006-06-21T10:54:00.000-07:00

have moved from here to deepandwide.blogspot

goodbye icansingarainbow!

(for now)

2006-06-21T10:53:00.000-07:00

this basically sums up life from 01/01/06 till now.

2006-05-14T05:00:00.000-07:00

waaa after a certain sms from a long time acquaintance matt.w, i launched into BLOG STALKER mode and started reading every single NJ person's online diary from my year.

it's really quite amazing how everyone has moved on with their own lives. i wonder how many of us actually look back and think fondly of those days in grey. (or if they even look back at all) i guess i am just a sentimental person. even though the grey memories aren't exactly fond, i still find myself missing those days just once in awhile.

life now is so different. it's like i'm still recovering from the aftermath of a life-shock. (think culture shock) the life i lead now i just so drastically different from that i've been leading these 'schooling' years.

1. i miss wearing a uniform. having to piece together a nice colour coordinated and FASHIONABLE set of work clothes everyday is extremely taxing on my brain. or maybe i just have a very small closet. (I SHOULD SHOP MORE I KNOW)

2. i now mix with an entirely different set of friends. i don't even see bea and mel! i saw them every single day in NJ (when they didn't pon)! =( now i see rachie rach, cel and clara every single day. not that it's a bad thing.. but it just feels so different.

3. work now. school then. go figure. (think rules, work responsibilities, ponning, unpaid leave etc)

4. i don't even USE my phone anymore. back then in tutorials, i would msg ll, kh, gerald and mel every single day till i thought faizal was gonna throw my phone out of the window! now when i get a msg, i just read it, close it and reply the next day.

5. i don't go on MSN anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

6. i don't frequently update my blog!

oh no oh no oh no.

2006-05-06T08:20:00.000-07:00

rule number one.
if he makes you feel less than a person, he's just not that into you!

ohh all these breaks. i need one too.

2006-05-03T07:44:00.000-07:00

2006-05-03T07:40:00.000-07:00

we're going to the zoo! how about you?

2006-05-03T07:30:00.000-07:00

NINETEEN MORE WORK DAYS!

SING WITH ME!

19 19 19 19 19 19 19!!!

:):):)

i can finally see the world properly while the sun is still shining brightly!

2006-04-17T04:45:00.000-07:00

and so it is..

blogspot > diary-x.

i wonder if anyone even reads this. (considering i have told no one about it except link it through diaryland and the diary-x find me page.)

four words sums up the year 2006 thus far.

i have been busy.

busy with what? not too sure myself although i suspect EY is the main reason.

so WHY do i have the time to update? WHY NOW?

because...
i am wisdom toothless and aching from it!

i want to congratulate myself because i deem it a feat that a human can willingly sit in a chair and let an old man pry her gums back, drill her teeth in half, pluck it out and sew her back up. (without so much as flinching for that matter.)

PLUS I AM RETURNING TO WORK TOMORROW? i think i am going to be a very very good accountant/business woman. workaholic i am.

made poor gerald come down after work just to watch me watch friends re-runs and accompany me. :) :) :)

so many things to do. mel.. i think you're the only close friend that reads this! (or maybe you don't because the world of waitressing has eaten you up.) but please let's meet up soon. :( :(

and so i leave for korea in a few days time! YAY!
hong kong is coming soon too!

but first i have the aching mouth/jaw/lymphnode to deal with. plus the stitches to remove.

and my entire future.

God is holding my hand.
God is holding my hand.

hope jon is doing fine back at camp. tqj too. treating army boys to a nice meal is really quite taxing for my wallet. read crystal jade and sushi tei.

it's been four months since the new year. almost half a year since i was still a JC student. i still feel some sense of nostalgia and sadness when i drive past NJC.

often, i think i live too much in the past.
it's time to live in the present and for the future.
let go.

besides, this year has been amazing, new, foreign and refreshing. guess it takes getting use to. just wish i could live this time out with bea and mel too.

working with cel, rach, clara and the other girls is great but obviously i miss bea and mel.
sigh. we shld make the effort to change together.

zzz.
i want gerald to come over asap! (i sound possessive!) hahaha.

everything is coming out disjointed. think it's the ponstan. xxzz.

oh and i haven't watched my tv shows in two months. :( gerald has caught up with me in lost already la.

i will be still,
know You are God.

oh and maundy thurs, good fri and easter sun have all just passed. hope each day held as much significance to you as it did for me. :)

ever living God.
oh there's no greater love than this!

2006-03-27T07:08:00.000-08:00

ZZZ

how did we get to this stage? i feel like an ostrich.

*

on another note, watching nuria's video of our last A level paper makes me sad.

many many ways.

school life. friends. melons. studying. being allowed to be stupid. innocence. youth.

kinda miss wearing the nj uniform although i have come to the conclusion that i look anything but cute in it.

tqj better meet me for dinner. i haven't caught up with a single nj friend in months. how pathetic!

sometimes you can't make it on your own.
we fight.. all the time
you and i.. that's alright (?)
we're the same soul

oh God i need You every hour.
every hour i need Thee.

2006-03-11T05:29:00.000-08:00

i seriously hate it when people are late, forgetful and when they cut short my baths.

let's just call it a series of unfortunate events although i no longer laugh in amusement when ppl joke about me changing blahblahblahs. i find myself actually entertaining the thought.

anyway, i found this saved in my comp from the v day postsecret edition. somehow the way the words are phrased just makes me wonder if he/she fell in love with being in love instead of really being IN love.

At this moment, there are six billion, four hundred seventy million, eight hundred eighteen thousand, six hundred seventy one people in the world.
Some are running scared.
Some are coming home.
Some tell lies to make it through the day.
Others are just not facing the truth.
Some are evil men, at war with good.
And some are good, struggling with evil.
Six billion people in the world,-
-six billion souls.
And sometimes..
.. All you need is one.

from ep301 of oth.

just finished ep316 of oth and i cried like a baby watching it. i sure has been shedding buckets of tears these few days.

With Tired Eyes, Tired Minds, Tired Souls, We Slept

some may disagree, but this was the best episode ever and i'm so glad i finally found time to watch it. i'm speechless. i don't want to comment about it, fearing that i may ruin exactly how great it was with my silly words. just go watch it. it's so amazing how they linked it all up from the past episodes in previous seasons. simply fantastic.

*

on a total random note,

nearly reached over and whacked the dean when he said how wonderful it was that i was working in a great company like EY. WHACK YOU LA. my OT pay still isn't in my acct!

but jeffrey wrote an excellent letter for us. gotta still love EY. KPMG is tied to SMU and PWC to NTU. what about NUS? and why isn't EY linked to any?

*

so put Your arms around me.

2006-03-10T17:57:00.000-08:00

maybe it is a mistake.

maybe THIS is a mistake.

maybe expecting a few people to understand is a mistake.

so as usual, it's my fault.

i'm the selfish one who is self centred and couldn't care less about others. what's new?

then why would i even care so much as to contiunously try to drive in the reasons as to why i may want to go overseas.

i give up.

it has come to the extent that this is so hilarious that it isn't even funny anymore.

i have to be a really stupid girl to expect them to understand.

who was i kidding.

we need a break cause i certainly haven't been missing this.

2006-03-10T04:17:00.000-08:00

don't know who has this new/old blog address after faithopelove @ diary-x.

from diaryland, diary-x and now blogspot. finally i'm at a friendly blog provider thingy.

anyway, it's been a long while. am currently cramping and wondering if the pain from cramps can be healed in God's name. after all, He struck women with labour pains and hence this monthly pain in the neck. (abdomen. whatever.) i like to believe we are all completely healed. just my stupid thoughts that arise during the boring moments at work.

mr colour (my colleague) is seriously amusing. one day, i'll do an entry about all his jokes.

am at this crossroad now. actually i'm at this multi pronged thingy actually. (haha.) so many things to choose. zzzzzzz. law. hospitality. dentistry. business/management. ah whatever la. can i just get married and be a tai tai? actually that isn't really a question. it's more of a.. I WANT.

hmmm but i'm an indecisive idiot cause i'd very much like to earn some of my own money, do the whole scale the corporate ladder thing in a hot Prada tweed suit, and finally arrive at my office overlooking the (apparently gorgeous) Singapore harbour along with my fat 6 digit paycheck. hahahahahahaha. (x100)
asset management! asset management is the answer my friends! asset management pays big bucks and i have proof from Deutsche Bank Asset Management payrolls! fashion allowance, cash allowance, housing allowance, pension allowance, transport allowance! i am good at building castles in the air man.

but i know one thing for sure.
all i want is You.. You're all i'm living for.

and that i want gerald to come back right now. (!!!) it's the 10th of march!

*

for mel ng the golden cat in the maldives. we haven't talked in agessss. :(

i think i'm going to do a picture entry of all the printed things i own. till then, say hello to the newest family member!

online shopping is good for you and me. now we just have to wait till we are 21, get AMEX platinum credit cards and go mad.

2006-03-06T05:12:00.000-08:00

hmmmm. not really new.